Tired and Confused

Today the the exam day,

the last exam in my senior school life.

However,I'm still wondering which college I would go

and whether would I accomplish my dream.

After the test, I felt exhausted.

Not tired of the successive tests but the aimless day after a day.

To be frankly, though I know what my heart desire I'm still confused.

My father blamed me yesterday said I should be more realistic

well......

I don't know which is more realistic

to believe I would get to the college I want or not?

Most of the time I live with the confidence that I will reach the goal.

Other time depressed by the difficulties and doubts I trapped into.